This resonates with me so deeply! I so appreciate your continued vulnerability, Gyan. I’ve fallen into this pattern as well. It’s so easy to get swept into the current of life, and hard to come back to stillness sometimes. My IV has really been encouraging me to just BE, and I’m slowly learning what that truly means. Xx
Ohhh, this resonated soooo deeply with me! That you for sharing! I know this feeling so well, and even recently I’ve realized that I am always running. Running from the feelings of my body. Wanting to leave it, like you wrote. I was doing soo much spiritual work, going inwards, learning to love myself, became more free in certain areas, but I was still running. And I still am. Even writing this I know I should take a deep breath and feel but I am writing.
My IV told me that I wasn’t ready before to face my trauma and that I am getting more ready, slowly. So I don’t have to be too hard with myself. „Humaning“ is a lot after all.
IV also said that it doesn’t have to be a painful process. It can be reaaaaally slow and steady.
I guess I’ll have to see! (Or better, trust)
Thank you Gyan for sharing your experience so beautifully!
Surrender is the first word that comes to mind. Because I can't fight/ do/ effort my way out it. It's a softening and surrendering that eventually lets my mind relax enough for the intuition to come through and for the well-needed release to happen. I was just there and I tried all the efforting I could think of but at the end it wasn't "me" who got me out of there, it was something else moving through as I surrendered <3 and it was beautiful.
This resonates with me so deeply! I so appreciate your continued vulnerability, Gyan. I’ve fallen into this pattern as well. It’s so easy to get swept into the current of life, and hard to come back to stillness sometimes. My IV has really been encouraging me to just BE, and I’m slowly learning what that truly means. Xx
Ohhh, this resonated soooo deeply with me! That you for sharing! I know this feeling so well, and even recently I’ve realized that I am always running. Running from the feelings of my body. Wanting to leave it, like you wrote. I was doing soo much spiritual work, going inwards, learning to love myself, became more free in certain areas, but I was still running. And I still am. Even writing this I know I should take a deep breath and feel but I am writing.
My IV told me that I wasn’t ready before to face my trauma and that I am getting more ready, slowly. So I don’t have to be too hard with myself. „Humaning“ is a lot after all.
IV also said that it doesn’t have to be a painful process. It can be reaaaaally slow and steady.
I guess I’ll have to see! (Or better, trust)
Thank you Gyan for sharing your experience so beautifully!
Sending love,
Miriam
Surrender is the first word that comes to mind. Because I can't fight/ do/ effort my way out it. It's a softening and surrendering that eventually lets my mind relax enough for the intuition to come through and for the well-needed release to happen. I was just there and I tried all the efforting I could think of but at the end it wasn't "me" who got me out of there, it was something else moving through as I surrendered <3 and it was beautiful.